Beach, The wind, Carried the sound of my voice, When I called you out On your bullshit choice. It was music to my ears, but it fed my deepest fears. - Pius the Bad Poet - Recently I've had to deal with some people that push my limits pretty bad. I'm not someone who seek … Continue reading Adulthood: Standing up for myself makes me feel like a…
Went to a bar, Wasn't really far. Had a drink or two, To feel comfortable around all of you. - Pius bad poem writer - Recently, I have been hanging out with this random group of people that suddenly came into my life after a guy randomly started talking to me at a convention and … Continue reading Being Social with Social Anxiety…
(Disclaimer: this post is about real shit) My depression has come to the point where i'm not really sad anymore, I just don't care. I find most things to be pointless because we're all going to die anyway. It's leaving me unmotivated to do things I should do, like applying for jobs, getting my social … Continue reading Depression Life: I don’t care, and it’s becoming a problem..
After spending the summer reading books about mental health I am seriously considering doing at least a bachelor in psychology starting from next fall. I feel that my interest in this field is growing every day, and it's something I feel would be motivating for me to work with. I have just finished my master … Continue reading Going into psychology..
Short summary: It is a story about a 15 year old boy named Craig who is depressed and suicidal. One day when he wants to end his life, he calls the suicide hotline and is told to go to the E.R. He ends up going to the adult section of psychiatric hospital where he meets … Continue reading Summer Reading: It’s Kind Of A Funny Story.
"I had a terrible temper, after all, and though it rarely erupted, when it did it frightened meand anyone near its epi-center. It was the only crack, but a disturbing one, in the otherwise vacuum-sealed casing of my behaviour. God only knew what ran underneath the fierce self-discipline and emotional control that had come with … Continue reading Summer Reading: An Unquiet Mind
I run and I sweat, And I never regret, That I put my shoes on, And once again won. Against my mind, While I work on my behind, Fitness fight the thoughts so cruel, They don't teach you that in school. -Pius the Genius Poem Writer- The last month or so, I've started running regularity. … Continue reading Run to the hills. Run for your life!
I follow a lot of "motivational" and "think positive" accounts on Instagram and Twitter, mostly they help and say good stuff, but some times they come up with things that just makes me feel bad about my situation. The worse one is this: Happiness is a Choice. Why? Well, because I didn't exactly choose to … Continue reading I Choose to be Happy?
"Telephone phobia (telephonophobia, telephobia, phone phobia) is reluctance or fear of making or taking phone calls, literally, "fear of telephones". It is considered to be a type of social phobia or social anxiety." - wikipedia Friday July 7th Today was my last therapy session. Am I allowed to say I am terrified? Cause I am … Continue reading Telephobia: But you HAVE to call!
Thursday, June 29th, 2017. For the past weeks my depression has been so bad that I haven't been able to get much done. I have people constantly reminding me I have to this and that, and this... and some times that. While i'm over here panicking since I can't get out of bed at a … Continue reading Searching for a job when you can’t get out of bed.